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About Me.


Name: Kok XuanEr
Birthday: 15/04/93
School: SwissCottageSecondary

Favorites: Psychology, Thinking, Reflections, Listening to songs, Silence, Recognitions, Encouragements
Loves: Coffee, Tea, Chocolates, Family, 4E2'09, LasTuRoex
Hates: This surreal world of mine.

TagBox

Links.

LasTuRoex

Marion
JaiChyi
ZhiHui
Marcus
Veronica

4E2'09

Desmond
ZhenYu
ZhengHuan
Kenny
HuangKai
Nicholas
LewYu
GahWai
ZiYong
Samuel
WeiJie
Daryl
Terence

SwissFalcon

Daniel
Farah
HanJie
LoonRong
JinWei
Clement
Lyndon
Eric
Aisyah
AwSiong
Jovian
Wynona
KuanYiou
Zack
WeeNee

Music.


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com


archives
October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009

Friday, October 31, 2008
confused... @ 11:53 PM
Today, went for history bridging though I'm not suppose to go. Subconsiously I'm actually hoping for smth. Talk cock more than doing work. ShiWei and Des keep on insult me but I don't really care lol. Can't you imagine only doing 1 factor in 45min? That's how slack I was. Went for recess than for mother tongue. Chat with GuoWei throughout the lesson so never really listen to Mdm Goh. Went for Scouts, paint banners. So nice of LewYu to help us paint a bit. Thanks! :) Finished 1 banner, my design got rejected (Well that's for sure coz I have no artistic talent). ALs asked me if I would come back as an AL in the future and I actually said YES. A lot of things to do in november, SIAN. Went for lunch (It was lyk 1530?) after Scouts with LoonRong, GuoWei and juniors. Hated the food so nothing much happen. Went home, had my first dota match of the year. Got trashed as usual as I'm the ultimate feeder. Heng never get scolded by anybody for being noob.

Decided to review on a great import from mediacorp, a fantastic foreign talent. Watched the show 不凡的爱 and there was this cheena prostitude who threatened 不凡. OMG SHE'S THE FIRST ACTRESS THAT MAKE ME FEEL SO DISGUSTED! Goosebumps la ma de =.=''. Super disgusting la! Got that f*k face still wan seduce ppl... OMG what a great import man! Salute to mediacorp (:

Feeling lost all of a sudden...

分手礼 - 元卫觉醒

我弹奏一首歌曲
想给你惊喜
现在我要献给我自己
当做是分手礼
回头看我的爱情
短暂如电影
散场之后就应该离去
到了最后结局
虽然你淡出我生命
却还占据我的记忆
我心里储存有太多来不及
删去
那些旋律
曾经牵动我的每一根神经
不同频率
却变成你送给我的分手礼
我有多爱你 不想扮演逃兵
除非是你 先放弃
我的心

回头看我的爱情
短暂如电影
散场之后就应该离去
到了最后结局
虽然你淡出我生命
却还占据我的记忆
我心里储存有太多来不及
删去
那些旋律
曾经牵动我的每一根神经
不同频率
却变成你送给我的分手礼
我有多爱你 不想扮演逃兵
除非是你 先放弃
怎么相信
我从天堂突然掉进了地狱
在你心里
我已失去拥抱爱情的权利
如果你确定
别问可以不可以
离开你 我真的
没关系

*This lyrics has no link to my life, I just find the song nice...


Thursday, October 30, 2008
woohoo hitman reborn 105!! @ 3:12 PM
Today nothing special happen... Went for bridging at 8. Thought I'm in chem bridging but i'm not =.=''. None the less, I went and sat with ZhenYu, Daryl and ShiWei. Did a mole worksheet. Talk cock more than do work though. After chem we had physics. Mr Lim Y.T was the teacher. Woohoo learn some useful things, such as watts is actually joule/second. Didn't remember Mr Ang say that. Mr Lim also uses MSSEA. When he mentioned that 3E2 is quite familar with the method, ZhenYu said, "That's why we fail...". LOL JOKER! After bridging went to ka jiao Ms Yeo's class den go home. Went home and watched Hitman Reborn 105!

After 4 days of wait, the subbed version is finally released! (: Talked a bit about the story of Lal Mirch and Colonello. Perhaps next episode the secret of the arcobaleno will be out! At the preview, I caught a glimpse of Colonello! Hope he is not dead! WA CAN'T WAIT FOR EPISODE 106!

Ok, yesterday watched WWE Raw and saw the match where Evan Bourne fight it out with Rey Mysterio. Make me have the passion to post a match of probably the best tag team ever, Rey Mysterio and Evan Bourne (:



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Picture of the day!
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LAL MIRCH AND COLONELLO!


Wednesday, October 29, 2008
愚か者... @ 6:20 PM
Today started off really bad... Got scolded by my dad for wasting electricity. (It was 0020) Woke up, got ready to go for bridging when my mom complained about me using com again. I was really du lan and decide to talk back. "Come on la day time I totally not at home save 1 afternoon de electricity liao only use for 1hr u all oso wan kpkb? It was only 0020 la!" Then my mom say, "not 0200++ le meh?" WTH OWNSELF SLEEP UNTIL BLUR BLUR STILL SCOLD ME! Went to have breakfast with my parents then went to school for bridging. First up was Mdm Goh's class. Do some oral thingy, didn't listen as usual as I was busy talking to GuoWei and ShiWei. Went for a break, joined in the discussion for the 3rd chapter of 跨年的约定. JiongHan damn gay, eat a lot as usual. Went for English class. It was MR TERENCE WONG W.K. The way he hao lian his english is really very unnatural. He self pawned by saying that he read student's blog, which we had already known. Did some worksheet on grammar. Suprisingly, KuoZun the joker was in our class while he should be at 3E5. Due to group discussions, me, Terence, Feizul, ZhenYu and KuoZun formed a group and we were chatting more than doing work. ZhenYu and KuoZun kept ask Feizul to translate some porno stuffs. Damn funny as we talked a lot of shit. After the class, went down with the thought of making banner but since LoonRong was about to go, I didn't help out with anything! (: Went to play soccer with Nic, Des, ZiYong, LoonRong, JiongHan and Timmy. The weather was too hot and unbearable so we left after a while. Bought teh peng as usual and helped to look for ShuJing's wallet at the bus stop along with the others. Nic so man la went into the school and helped look (we intend to all go in but since o lvl was goin on, only 1 person can enter). Rot at the bus stop talking cock while waiting for Nic. Decided to go home as I was not intending to go to LoonRong's house in the first place. Reached home, did the ULTIMATE SELF PAWN =.=''. I'm such a baka ):


Tuesday, October 28, 2008
You'd never really lived life until you fail... @ 11:14 PM
Today attended a very motivational course. Seriously, I can't believe i'm saying this, but i really find it useful. OK basically, attended a workshop hosted by 'trybe', a social service kind of organization. First thing, when i see the grouping, kind of dissapointed for some known reason. Got grouped with a bunch of jokers like sam, ah kai, nuovo a.k.a Johny etc. First thing, we went to the first session, which focused on facing your failure and investigating your mistakes. The facilitators gave us a couple of pictures of popular people whom face their failures and became successful. One of the was Michael Jordon. We had to name the persons for the first activity. Initially, for that clinton guy (america's dunno which year de president), nuovo wanted to go write mao ze dong... The beatles became jonas brothers... Got kind of inspired by their success stories.

"I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games, 26 times. I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed... I've failed over and over again in my life. And that is why i succeed."
-Michael Jordon

According to the instructor, Michael Jordon was rejected from the basketball team when he was in high school. His coach rejected him, saying that he was not tall enough to be in the team. However, he did not give up and tried and tried. Eventually, he became a basketball legend. The beatles also had their failures too. They were insulted by others saying that their music was not good enough, they had internal conflicts within their group. However, they worked as a team and eventually, they became a well known group. Walt Disney was sacked from some company as he was not creative enough. Thomas Edison was removed from class as the teacher thought that he was not good enough to deserve to study. There are many more examples given but I don't really remember. These people face their failures and learn from them, therefore becoming successful, which is pretty motivational. After this session, we had a talk by Mr. Sam Victor, who was an ex. delinquent who got his way to the university. Didn't really listen much to what he said as he was simply describing his childhood and telling us how his wife changed his life etc.

After the break, went for another session which focused on goals for success and try with your best. Nothing much for this as we played some games to understand the importance of goal setting and watched a motivational video on how hard exactly is trying our best. After this session, we had a talk by Mr. Nicholas Lee, a man who accidentally became a university graduate. According to him, he was just floating all the way to the JC and only worked hard when he found out that he was going to retain for his JC's first year. He had many jobs, worked in the HDB, a bank, stock exchange and now leading a social service organization. I find him rather funny but i don't really find him motivational as compared to Michael Jordon that group of people. The session ended off with a skit, which was pretty enjoyable. It was really useful for me (I might be saying this today but i know that i will surely forget all that i've learnt the next day =.='')

Overall, these are the few important things we must know to achieve success.
Face Your Failure
Investigate Your Mistakes
Goals For Success
Happy Thoughts
Try With Your Best

After the workshop, went straight for scouts. Taught the juniors how to build basha tents (which is very simple). Started making banner and completed half of it. Had all my hands covered with paints and the smell of turpentine really ruined my day. Valmond and Aw Siong was like crapping over the banners, making life difficult for LoonRong. E.g that letter not nice, the scouts logo 1 side big 1 side small etc. Really funny. After scouts, went for tuition as usual. Completed a summarise version of Phantom Of The Opera (It was a audiobook kind of thing and we just read from the paper while listening). Gave my Jay Chou poker to KaiJie and he was like so happy though I don't find anything special about the cards. Bought my favourite milk tea and drank it on the bus. Marion said good luck to me for drinking it as it has sugar? LOL? I know that drinking sweet drink is unhealthy but I just cannot resist the temptation of drinking milk tea... Went home, watched fight science on okto and learnt that a katana is so geng. It's the strongest martial arts weapon! Feel like getting 1 though it is impossible.

Video of the day!

Watched this clip once again during the session on try with your best. Really good example on how to work on your 120%, which is indeed trying our very best.

Quote of the day!
"Success isn't something you chase. It is something you have to put forth the effort constantly."
-Michael Jordon


Monday, October 27, 2008
what a sian day... @ 12:29 AM
Today whole day rot at home leh... Woke up, went for lunch, use com, sibei no life... While watching 综艺大哥大 on channel 56, saw this week 劉謙's magic sibei stylo therefore gonna share with all of you! kindly start watching from 4.56 coz i cannot find a version that has only the trick. SO SORRY! Btw, HAPPY DEEPAVALI!




你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了

你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深切切淡掉了

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你坐着 却伤感着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后再后悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你坐着 却伤感着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你知道真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让配角全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

*Kindly visit zhenyu's blog for a very motivational story...


Saturday, October 25, 2008
2nd day of holiday... @ 5:50 PM
Today early morning got scouts liao... Woke up earlier than expected... Reached sch at 0630++ coz scouts start at 7... Attendance is kanasai la =.='' A lot of things cock up, a lot of things happen... Built the framework of the structure again for the entire meeting... After meeting, waited for HanSen and Valmond to appear so we can go lunch together when the security guard locked the gate... Ms Wan (not the history de ppl dun get horny!), HanSen and Valmond was still in the school...



LoonRong, "Looks like Ms Wan gonna climb out of the gates..."

He moved his position closer, hoping to look till he shiok shiok...

HanJie, "Come on la she's wearing pants..."

LoonRong, "Maybe can see the clevage wor..."

Lyndon, "Gonna video this!"



WALAU LOONRONG IS SO HORNY!



The guard came back and unlocked the gate. Ms Wan they all got scolded by the security guard for being late to come out of the school. Valmond gave the "Scold enough already can go already?" kind of attitude, quite geng. Went for lunch at nearby coffeeshop and was late for tuition. Today tuition do some fun mathematics worksheet. Copied most of the answers lol. Finally remember to bring the CD to lend to KaiJie. The new advertisers for the tuition centre really is cmi =.=''. Went to the coffeshop near the centre to pei JiaChyi they all eat. Drank my favourite teh peng LOL. ZhiHui was going airport to see a friend off so didn't go home with us. Had an emo trip home on the bus... Dunno y...



Hehe went to okcupid.com and did a test! :)

Your result for The Heart Test...

Slave to Emotions

You are 10% Independent, 80% Idealistic, 80% Intimate, and 100% Indulgent!

The Slave to Emotions

Dependent, Idealistic, Intimate, Indulgent



You are the most emotional of hearts, the Slave to Your Emotions. You crave love, and have high standards for love. You are very intimate and value harmony with a mate. Sometimes you may feel that you are over-emotional and see this as a curse at times, because you are so emotionally-charged, and you so greatly desire love. You might want to break the emotional chains that bind you, but find that the ideals of love and intimacy are firmly shackled to you and cannot be severed.



Matches for the Slave to Emotions:



The Bleeding Heart

The Bleeding Heart is idealistic and indulgent as you are, and just as love-needy, making for lots of shared common ground. You'll also find the Bleeding Heart to be more passionate and fun-loving, something that at first might turn you off, but you will find this will provide a perfect balance to your intimate nature.



The Heart of Gold

The Heart of Gold values harmony and unity just as you do, and shares your ideals of love and intimacy, but is more independent. The Heart of Gold will never leave you and always be there to love you, and this above all else you will appreciate. The Heart of Gold's loving nature will make you feel as if you have found someone to help carry your rattling emotional chains, and that they are glad to do it.



The Patron Saint's Heart

The Patron Saint's Heart craves love just as you do and value harmony and togetherness as well, but is more down-to-earth and passionate than you. However, you will value these more sensual qualities, and the Patron Saint's more protective and loving nature will make you feel loved needed, something value greatly.



Your exact opposite is The Lord's Heart.



Avoid Explicits when possible. They're open and frank nature is contrary to yours. You may also want to avoid Independents unless they have other qualities you seek to balance them out, as you are a person who craves closeness with another person.




Friday, October 24, 2008
1st day of holiday... @ 6:40 PM
Sigh... First day of holiday nothing to do already... Started customizing my desktop since I found out that my vista transformation pack had cock up... Spent 3 hrs trying to crack WindowBlinds (yea I know i'm retarded). Tried out a sidebar and found out that sidebars are indeed useless... CUSTOMIZING IS FUN! Tmr morning got scouts again... Gonna be a tiring day ):

想你仿佛是一种煎熬...


小酒窩 XIAO JIU WO - 林俊傑, 蔡卓妍


我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老


Thursday, October 23, 2008
last day of school... @ 11:00 PM
Today damn cold, keep rain. First thing in the morning play musical chairs in class coz no flag raising, and the stupid loon push me away, first to be eliminated. I'm a loser =.='' Ms Yeo came in and gave us a lecture on our future... I find the pioneer jc marks rather tempting... Gave out cca record and i got 20 cca points liao :) Self pawned for the second consecutive day during recess =.='' During POA, celebrated Mdm Tang's farewell party. Everyone was like crazy lol damn fun. Gave my share of cake to shiwei and he seemed to be really happy.Went home straight after school as I don't feel like going to loon's house. Rot until 7 then i went for PTM.

First thing when i see Mdm Serene Tang, she commented on my hair =.='' Next, she ask me about my target. I said maybe Pioneer JC and she asked me aim for Jurong JC. She ask me study 12hr daily during the holidays. WHO THE HELL CAN STUDY 12HRS DAILY? She said that i must get L1R5 of 13 by june, in which i agreed with her. Flood me with SS homework and said that she gonna collect next year. GG, LOOKS LIKE SHE'S TEACHING AGAIN. Lastly, she ask me cut slope, due to her lame reason that my hair acts as some kind of pesticide and suck my nutrients away, resulting in my poor results =.='' Left school and got caught in the rain, now headache.


CLASS PHOTOS!
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Wednesday, October 22, 2008
现实中幸福永远缺货... @ 3:44 PM
Today started off badly... Reached school at 0635 to take down that stupid structure while that asshole who asked us to take it down was not in school even until flag raising... Went back to class after flag raising and dunno which idiot tell ms yeo that i was rejected by shimin =.= "You should have had better results so she will notice you..." WTH LA! pei suan to the max for nothing... Went for AGM after that. Everything went smoothly, LUCKILY. During recess, ZiYong cheat my feeling by telling me that he gonna retain... I actually believe him leh, damn retarded sia me. During the public speaking course, I got the most bo liao topic ever, "Is mole important?". Actually had to say a 1min speech thus I talk cock about appearance kind of thing. Last session le have to say bye to Gary kind of sad. After school actually decided to go for soccer but rain, so we rot at the coffeeshop as well as the voiddeck and finally decided to go home. Watched hitman reborn 104, pretty simple episode, not much suprise.

Picture of the day:
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GARY IS GAY!


Tuesday, October 21, 2008
a tired day... @ 10:39 PM
Firstly, a big THANK YOU to all who tagged me! :) found out dat the loser is actually Lyndon =.= Initially thought was xav. Note to all: If you all wanna play the song, kindly click the music note beside the song name. No auto play de ):

Today is a very crap day. Gary was not here to take us for the lesson, therefore the lesson is rather bored. Presented my speech, and the teacher thought i was shimin =.=''. Stupid shiwei la keep shout. Went to TP after that. The bus trip was BORING as i was beside Mrs V and cannot take out phone. Was rather suprise that Mrs V was able to use chinese to communicate with XiuFang wor. The TP trip was rather dissapointing as I DIDN'T SPOT ANY CHIO BU! ): Sat with Daryl and ZhenYu during the lecture and we guai lan the banglah lecturer by making guai lan laughs. Chirstopher talk a lot of shit during the lecture, damn funny. After the lecture got buffet! Shiwei ate 3-4 servings while I ate none. Went back to school and don't at all feel like going to CCA.

Scouts was tiring as once again as we built the framework for the structure for NPC. Was rather fu*k up with some asshole who ask us to take down the structure after a few hours of hard work. Tmr have to go school at 0630 to take down the structure wor... DAMN SIAN

Went for tuition after CCA. KAIJIE I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT BRINGING THE ALBUM! Played a vocabulary game in which we nearly won. The sec 2s were so enthu and treat it as a competition. Was rather amazed upon hearing that zhihui ran all the way from gombak to the centre after his badminton training. After tuition, bought my favourite milk tea once again despite drinking it for my lunch. Took the bus home as usual. Sadly, I haven't do earnler's reflection wor and still have to pay $10.50 for some smlj course =.=''

I learnt one thing today. Girls can fall out with one another due to the lamest reason =.=''

CLASS PHOTOS!
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Monday, October 20, 2008
woohoo my very first post! @ 5:26 PM
Today bo tai bo ji feel lyk starting blog leh... I LOVE HITMAN REBORN! DE BLOGSKIN! :)

Today got the 'interesting' public speaking course. That gary is seriously a clown lo, freakin funny... wahaha... Still need write speech for de next day as need to present., SIAN NAH! After class went to see earnler. Find him VERY IRRITATING! he simply piss me off as he wasted around 1hr of my life. The session is simply useless as we were just joking around. After that went to play soccer at the usual place. Loonrong wear de tintin shirt so nice wor! Should have taken a picture... ): Dunno y he keep fall down today, and tore his pants at de knee area =.=''

Picture of the day...

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wa i seriously love lambo!