You're So Last Summer.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Azure. @ 12:20 AM

I'm back here blogging again? Pathetic.

Entire day's weary struck at this hour. Gawd, I'm dead tired.

My determination? Time to enforce more discipline.

Live for myself, live for my mom. I don't want regrets.

Undergoing a process of eliminating distractions. It's impossible though. Not at all realistic.

Craps. Just wish for a better day ahead.

I shall wish for a clear azure tomorrow.

*I got a strong feeling that I gonna retake my mother tongue Os.. Gotta go get ready the $$! ==

Labels: lifeeee..

Monday, June 29, 2009

Melancholy. @ 3:00 PM

Yep. School's on. Had a rather peaceful day in school, just that I don't like the new classroom. Sitting beside LoonRong at the back of the class. Inevitably, I'm not adapted to the new environment as yet.

Well, normal is a bliss. I'd consider this as a blessing.

Mrs Wong's class was rewarding.

Sanguine, Melancholy, Choleric, Phlegmatic.

Well, what type are you?

Hunted for a test regarding these upon reaching home. Finding out about myself is always in my blood.

Hmm, it appears that I'm a melancholy. Quite accurate isn't it?

Come to think of it, everything changes, but not personality. I have to admit, I'm pretty amazed. I'm still me and I'm glad of it.

Hopefully my determination stays, for I'm not letting that cursed sensation overwhelm my eyes ever again.

I'm never a martyr.

The lost fragment that had chipped off has no relevance to me.

Labels: lifeeee..

Strength. @ 12:16 AM

Greatest Love Of All- Whitney Houston

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody's searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs
A lonely place to be
And so I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed at least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed at least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all

And if by chance that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

End of holiday. School's starting.

Let this be a new start.

Let's hope that I won't bring forward any of my distractions from the past.

Time for war. Distractions are loopholes for one to be killed.

I'm not losing this war. Never.

Still, I don't believe in someone sharing my victory with me though.

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Tall. @ 12:22 AM

Those painful memories are what can help us make it to tomorrow and become stronger.

That goes for everyone- Every single human being has that power within them.

Walk tall, and I, too, will keep walking tall, ever onwards.

It's a promise. Till we meet again.

-Fairy Tail Chapter 102

Labels: addictions.., quotes..

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Dispensibility. @ 5:13 PM

I never enjoy tension. I believe nobody would. Tense atmosphere simply stinks.

Somehow, I always believe that nobody is dispensable.

Be it in an organization, society, community, everybody has a part to play.

It's not like things will run by an S.O.P, just that everyone is unique and significant in their own way.

Nothing will be the same if a component is missing. This is nothing but pure facts.

To sum up, never take people for granted. Be it the past, present or future. Never.

You just wouldn't know what's gonna happen next.

What's in front of you may become a mirage in a blink of an eye.

That's life, scary but true.

Labels: lifeeee..

Coffee and tea. @ 12:20 AM

The smell of coffee lingering in my room, just like me lingering on an empty street.

Enough of the craps. Basically I just drank a cup of coffee and couldn't sleep.

Everything we do will have it's relevance, coz we bound to learn something from'em.

Treat everything you do with pride, they are life-long experiences.

Nothing really stays life-long, but experiences will follow you around to your grave.

Thanks whoever out there for enriching my life.

*R.I.P Michael. People will remember you not just by your name, but your controversial life.

Labels: lifeeee..

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Wonder. @ 8:25 PM

As above.

Sometimes I really wonder, what's my path.

What route to take next, things like that, should be clear instead of oblivious.

It's not like even after eons I will remain the same. Well, it's not possible for me to live that long anyway.

My thoughts, words and deeds aren't right at all. They bare no significance.

Like fire emanating heat, common yet abundant. Things should be that kind of purposeful, right?

Hopefully, I'm on the right track, for my relevance is totally negative.

Life's a journey, a rich and everlasting one.

It's always nice to see a new story. Yep, it is.

Labels: lifeeee..

Uneasiness. @ 12:22 AM

What's with the wind tonight?

Spine chilling, unnatural.

Makes me feel uneasy.

Something's gonna happen? Who knows?

@12.52am
Life's isn't always appear as it seems. Do look in between layers.

等价交换, also known as 'Equivalent Trade', Do exist. There's no running from it.

The sky is red. A storm is coming.

Labels: lifeeee..

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Sanity. @ 7:42 PM

First of all, Happy Birthday LZH! Thanks for being such a great friend!

Yep, what's next?

Hoobastank- I Don't Think I love You

I wonder what you'll take from me today
Sanity or just my breath away
It's hard to say
Impossible for me to tell
While always walking on egg shells
Who you're going to be from day to day, to day

Chorus:
I wish that we would go back
To where we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see
What you've changed since we first met
And how much that is killing me
I know that I will always miss
The butterflies of our first kiss
And how you use to smile so easily

Chorus:
I wish that we would go back
To where we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Bridge:
It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I never thought that it will come to this
I know we`ll never get back
To how we were before
Cuz' I know that I don't love you anymore

It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I know that I don't love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry...

Perfect Solution? Let's pray that It can be that significant.

Somehow I hope I'm clear in thoughts, word and deed.

All the best to me, I suppose.

Labels: LasTuRoex, lifeeee.., songs..

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Stop. @ 8:53 PM

N.O.M.B.

I always tell that to myself.

However, the vicious cycle just keep going on like forever.

I'm not trying to make a point here, I just don't like the current me.

Sometimes, I ought to be shot.

Let this be the last. Hopefully.

@11.45pm
Heyhey!

Enough of the nonsense just now.

Emo for fug? Who fugging cares? (OMG bad attitude.)

Think what you want, do what I like.

Your problem not my problem, don't make your problem my problem. Haven't use this quote for a long time apart from scolding people.

Come to think of it, it's extremely easy to be an asshole but it takes years of cultivation to be someone nice.

I just have an urge, to like walk alone forever and ever and ever. I adore the silence.

一个人就好 - 刘力扬

街挤满了欢笑
太不适合眼泪凑热闹
快跑快寻找无人的转角
不优雅时候一个人最好

爱说退就退潮
我松开手回忆却没放掉
未来不来了地球继续绕
躲回温暖的梦我一个人就好

为什麽越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以後我一个人过就很好

心很平静地跳
只是寂寞潜伏像海啸
突然某一秒偷袭我眼角
眼泪自己擦掉我一个人很好

为什麽越相信谁能依靠
越换来又一次灵魂寂寥
有没有永远再不会让心绝望的解药
如果说越踏出世界一脚
越不能保留住天真微笑
那从今以後我一个人过就很好

Sry but I just found this lyrics kind of familiar . Who cares anyway?

Later then!~

Another NONSENSICAL post drafted by an idiot.

*ZHENYU FASTER COME BACK!

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Monday, June 22, 2009

Significance. @ 11:56 PM

不一定快樂- 黃雅莉
詞:王雅君
曲:范瑋琪

回憶慢慢的往前走
怎麼我卻一直在退後
退到發現只能握住風

天地遼闊此刻的我
住進沙漠掉進了漩渦

做了一場變了形的夢
夢裡的雨後沒有彩虹
但我們卻用力追到痛~

任性的我當時不懂
放開的左手用力過了頭更痛

這一次我想我真的懂
所以眼淚選擇不再流
幸福到曲折迷路了
你可以選你要的夢

這一次我想我真的懂
一半幸福不一定快樂
謝謝是你讓我懂了
面對心痛也捨得放手

做了一場變了形的夢
夢裡的雨後沒有彩虹
但我們卻用力追到痛~

任性的我當時不懂
放開的左手用力過了頭更痛

這一次我想我真的懂
所以眼淚選擇不再流
幸福到曲折迷路了
你可以選你要的夢

這一次我想我真的懂
一半幸福不一定快樂
謝謝是你讓我懂了
面對心痛也捨得放手

這一次我想我真的懂
所以眼淚選擇不再流
幸福到曲折迷路了
你可以選你要的夢

這一次我想我真的懂
一半幸福不一定快樂
謝謝是你讓我懂了
面對心痛也捨得放手

If only things could be that significant.

Labels: addictions.., lifeeee.., songs..

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Nonsensical. @ 10:28 PM

In the labyrinth of emotions where I can see the exit,

I quietly closed my eyes..

…There’s no place for me to return to, either

Trying to look clean and tidy left too many holes in my defense. What was I protecting? Myself?

Special people like you don't deserve to be alone.

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Step. @ 8:33 PM

Sow a seed, give it water, embrace it in light, and allow it to bloom. Flower. That’s right. There is no such thing as eternal withering.

I am supposed to pursue my dream, in this narrow winding road, stuttering in the crowds of people.

Using a process of elimination, the future becomes constrained. We can add up all our possibilities without making any mistakes and head to the next dimension.

I hate rainy days.

Labels: lifeeee..

Friday, June 19, 2009

Quinta Essentia. @ 1:08 AM

Void. Stay Strong. It's never easy. Never gonna be. I felt overwhelmed. Sheesh..

Time to run.

Labels: lifeeee..

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

My kind of song. @ 11:28 PM

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Being 2years of JPOP fanatic, it wasn't that insignificant huh.

This is still my kind of song.

Bloom with the melody, wither with the lyrics.

Labels: addictions.., songs..

Things. @ 12:16 PM

Just recovered back something I said last year. Things were always that case. It will forever be.

I suppose I'm someone who keeps promises.

Later then.

Labels: lifeeee..

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Me. @ 4:21 PM

Just realised that I've changed because I told myself to.. Nothing changed exactly.

Pathetic loser huh.

Well, some things are just not meant to be. I'm never the type of person who forces things and disrupts balance. That's just not me.

Be it the past, future or present, nothing seems to matter to me. Dignity for a sense, it's been stolen and forsaken.

Like what I always say, I may change for a purpose, but I will never expect the environment to change for me. That's just one viewpoint in which I've been upholding all along.

As long as nobody's been affected, that's cool isn't it?

Viewpoints, opinions, thoughts changes with time. Nothing seems real now. Inconspicuous.

Behind the hazel eyes, what are we actually seeing?

As of above, that's me.

*Above text has no designated audience.

If there's a easy solution with things, my world will never be in this madness.

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, June 13, 2009

命. @ 10:05 PM

足足兩個月的愚昧, 夠了吧.

我要對自己更好.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Be Survivor from Eyeshield 21 by ZZ (Episode 15 Insert)

I really want to do what I feel
It’s not that big of a deal right now
With too much awkwardness I place my hands
Sweeping victory be survivor

We are ones that hurt each other like we have no feelings
Just with one ideal, we get nearer through painstaking work
I don’t give a damn of what is right
Since there is a road leading to many, let’s believe in clear-cut dream maker

Hey, are you going to throw it away? Are you going to avoid it?
I feel it’s my mission

Love for life, drive for light ultramarine colored sky
Cry for fight, smile for bright lets cut through it
Love for life, drive for light I think I see tomorrow
Cry for fight, smile for bright shaking your heads

I really want to do what I feel
It’s not that big of a deal right now
With too much awkwardness I place my hands
Sweeping victory be survivor

Because I want the flower that I protect, one day bloom
As if I bit through a chaotic tangled up rope
Where is a place I can rest?
There is a place right here
A story without a scenario
Morning Glory past the battle

Hey, can you go? Or are you going to run?
I feel a responsibility

Love for life, drive for light through bloody
Cry for fight, smile for bright you should laugh at the now
Love for life, drive for light the tears have dried
Cry for fight, smile for bright shaking you heads

I really want to do what I feel
It’s not that big of a deal right now
With too much awkwardness I place my hands
Sweeping victory be survivor

Love for life, drive for light ultramarine colored sky
Cry for fight, smile for bright lets cut through it
Love for life, drive for light I think I see tomorrow
Cry for fight, smile for bright shaking your heads

Love for life, drive for light let’s run up the stairs of life
Cry for fight, smile for bright everyday and every night, fresh and cleared
Love for life, drive for light my own self is the best rival
Cry for fight, smile for bright sweeping victory be survivor

I really want to do what I feel
It’s not that big of a deal right now
With too much awkwardness I place my hands
Sweeping victory be survivor

Labels: addictions.., lifeeee.., songs..

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Stranger. @ 5:38 PM

Wise words

Do observe the surroundings.

Labels: lifeeee..

Monday, June 8, 2009

?? @ 11:49 PM

Nothing new, nothing special, nothing worth mentioning.

A month ago was like gawd damn excited over the SP thingy?

A month later, all the interest is gone. Didn't went for the SP Experience thingy earlier today despite so many people went.

Who cares a fug? Why bother?

Labels: lifeeee..

Sunday, June 7, 2009

@ 2:33 AM

DEAD

HAPPY¿

Thoughts.. FUCK OFF

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, June 6, 2009

@ 11:08 PM

未來是難以琢磨的. 沒勇氣去期盼, 也沒意義去摸索.

執著? 我甯願以微笑代表一切.

想太多, 倒不如珍惜僅有的時光.

[/edit] Fullstop.

Labels: lifeeee..

低调.. @ 12:17 AM

努力的对自己好..

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Friday, June 5, 2009

舞台.. @ 11:14 PM

Haven't sort of describe my life for a while huh..

Went school for a routine remedial session.. English was Mdm Mini.. Engaging speaker? Enjoyed her lesson.. During the break, went to visit the Scouts.. Went to look for HanJie with GuoWei to settle some stuffs.. Went back for history.. Did a timed assignment SBQ.. What a turnoff.. Break again, went back to visit the Scouts.. HuiJie was there and asked the Sec3s to sing in the girls toilet? LOL dunno what the heck they were doing.. Went back for SS, the most beneficial lesson to date.. Went back to Scouts once again and did some catching up with HuiJie.. Homed with GuoWei, LoonRong and HanJie..

After considering for a whole night, decided to go to the Arts Night.. Me, Waqiu, Carina and Madaline sort of represented the UG Council on our own accord.. Went early and accompanied the prefects as they did some catching up with the Ex Head Prefect.. (What a failure.. I dunno how spell her name..) Haha engaging and nice person.. Went to catch the performance.. Rewarding and fun.. Bronze? Seriously deserved better.. Went back to school to catch the rest of the performance..

After all the performance ended, helped out with the clearing up.. Pathetic mess.. Took a BROTHERS pic at the foyer before leaving.. Will be posting once I get the pic from Waqiu.. Head to meet with LasTuRoex and then homed..

Some interesting thing to share.. Just got to know from my Sis a few days ago.. We got this family trait inherited from our Mom.. The 'Think Too Much' syndrome.. It seems that it's inevitable for both of us to let our thoughts run wild.. What a cursed inheritance.. ==

[/edit] PICTURES (as promised)

Brothers forever..

Nostalgic orienteering experience we had together..

Labels: LasTuRoex, lifeeee..

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Taboo.. @ 2:28 PM

Taboo. A topic that hasn't been brought up for sometime.. Sigh..

Can't time just slow down or something?

Stop thinking please..

[/edit]
Nights.. @2336

Labels: lifeeee..

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

自以為的世界.. @ 11:58 PM

Been having routine lyk lessons for the past few days.. Sigh.. Getting pissed off soon..

AND I'M NOT AT ALL LOOKING FORWARD TO PHYSICS TOMORROW!

太多理智的世界..

Labels: lifeeee..

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

별빛눈물 (Starlight Tears) – 김유경 (Kim YuKyung) @ 6:28 PM

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :D

[/edit]

Yet another nice song to reco..

별빛눈물 (Starlight Tears) – 김유경 (Kim YuKyung)

새하얀 별빛이 눈물을 감싸요
따뜻한 바람에 눈물이 내려요
그대 느끼나요
조용히 속삭이는 그대를 향한 이 떨림을

하얀 종이 위에 그댈 그려요
따뜻한 미소가 날 안아 주네요
이게 사랑인가요
두 눈을 감아 봐도 그대만 보이는 걸요

I will be waiting for you
그댈 기다릴게요
더이상 아픈 눈물 보이지 않을래요
You let me know 거짓말 같은 사랑
놓지 않을 거에요 바로 그대니까요

그대와의 기억 속을 걷고 있어요
가슴 속 가득히 눈물이 고여요
나 어떻게 하죠
꿈속에서도조차 그대를 그리워해요

I will be waiting for you
그댈 기다릴게요
더이상 아픈 눈물 보이지 않을래요
You let me know 거짓말 같은 사랑
놓지 않을 거에요 바로 그대니까요

날 바라봐 줘요 저기 저 별들처럼
내 맘의 그대가 되어줄 수 없나요

I will be waiting for you
그댈 기다릴게요
더이상 아픈 눈물 보이지 않을래요
You let me know 거짓말 같은 사랑
놓지 않을 거에요 바로 그대니까요

Translation..

the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don’t want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that’s like a lie, i’ll never let it go
because that love is you

i’m walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don’t want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that’s like a lie, i’ll never let it go
because that love is you

please look at me, like the faraway stars
can’t you be the one that’s in my heart

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don’t want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that’s like a lie, i’ll never let it go
because that love is you

Palpitation..

Labels: addictions.., lifeeee.., songs..

2nd again.. @ 12:00 AM

Seems lyk it's the second again.. (:

Labels: lifeeee..

Monday, June 1, 2009

조금은 (A Little Bit) – 서진영 (Seo JinYoung) @ 2:41 PM

조금은 (A Little Bit) – 서진영 (Seo JinYoung)

슬퍼지면 꽃향기를 맡죠
그리운 그대 향기를 만져요
거리를 걸어요 바람에 스치는
그대 숨결 닿을 듯 해요

알고있죠 그댄 내 맘 모르죠
보고싶어 난 또 편지를 적어요
수줍은 내 마음 꽃잎에 띄워서
그대에게 보내요

난 웃어요 힘이들면 웃어요
혼자서도 난 행복해요
멀리서 멀리서 바라봐야 하지만
그저 한걸음 조차 다가서지 못하고

조금은 알고있나요 조금은 볼 수있나요
그댄 꿈처럼 나의 맘 속 조용히 흐르면
문득 조금은 난 그댈 사랑하는 마음을
살며시 보이고 싶은걸

기분 좋은 그대 노래 소리에
수줍은 듯 난 또 가슴이 뛰어요
혹시나 그대가 이런 날 볼까봐
살며시 또 숨어요

난 웃어요 외로워도 웃어요
혼자서도 난 잘해왔죠
말없이 말없이 뒷모습을 보지만
그대 부드러운 손 잡아보고 싶지만

조금은 알고있나요 조금은 볼 수있나요
그댄 별처럼 나의 맘 속 추억을 만들어
아주 조금은 난 그대 따사로운 어깨에
기대어 잠들고 싶어요

운명이겠죠 사랑이겠죠
알까요 이런 내 마음을

조금은 알고있나요 조금은 볼 수있나요
그댄 꿈처럼 나의 맘 속 조용히 흐르면
문득 조금은 난 그댈 사랑하는 마음을
살며시 보이고 싶어요

조금은 그대를 그리죠

Translation..

whenever i’m sad, i smell the fragrance of the flowers
i miss you, i touch your scent
walking the distance, fleeting in the wind
i feel as though i could touch your breath

you know, you don’t know my heart
i miss you. i write a letter again
plucking a petal of my shy heart
i send it to you

i smile. when it’s hard, i smile.
even though i’m alone, i’m happy
though i have to watch you from far away, far away
and you don’t walk towards me one step

do you know at least a little? could you look at me just a little?
you flow in my heart quietly like a dream
suddenly, i want to cautiously show you a little of my loving heart

at the sound of your cheerful song
my seemingly shy heart starts to thud
lest should you see me like this
i hide again gently

i smile. even though i’m lonely, i smile
i’ve done okay so far by myself
though i look at your back figure without a word, without a word
though i want to hold your soft hands

do you know at least a little? could you look at me just a little?
you make memories in my heart like a star
just a little, i want to lean on your warm shoulders and fall asleep

this is probably destiny. it’s probably love.
could you know, this heart of mine?

do you know at least a little? could you look at me just a little?
you flow in my heart quietly like a dream
suddenly, i want to cautiously show you a little of my loving heart

just a little, i miss you

Nice song.. From Boys Over Flowers OST (Great Soundtrack!)

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