You're So Last Summer.

Friday, July 31, 2009

August. @ 10:33 PM

August is arriving in 1hr and 26min.

Is it a good thing or a bad thing?

Build thou beyond thyself, but first be sure that thou thyself be strong and healthy in body and mind.

Labels: lifeeee..

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Tick. @ 9:44 PM

Tick Tock.

I've made up my decision.

"Wisdom isn't about not making mistakes, but about learning to escape afterward with our dignity and sanity intact."
- Richard Templar

I've been living my life with noticeable mistakes. Not that I don't realize them, I just run from them.

I'm immune. Current is fine.

Still, the nectar of life is for one to savor and not to be wasted.

Just enjoy the moment,

As long as you have faith and believe, it'll always be there.

I'm one who don't believe in results. I see more in the process.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Exhaustion. @ 7:57 PM

Yet another bad hair day. As usual~

Today was intensive.

One complete set of maths paper (Paper 1&2), Two SPA Exercises (Chemistry and Physics)

My eyes actually teared on their own. Gawd.

Sudden craving for Porkloin chop. Zzz..

I'm hungry!

Edit@2010

The clock is still ticking. The countdown continues.

Paradigm shift? Who knows?

Edit@2206

"It's a yardstick to measure (A) How I'm doing, (B) What I'm doing, and (C) Where I'm going."
- Richard Templar

The story proceeds.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Emptiness. @ 10:34 PM

Thanks for overwhelming me today.

Life has been peaceful, too peaceful.

When will life have a bit of content?

Life is full of uncertainties and random catastrophes."

That's not happening to me.

Somehow, something has become a part of me.

*Thanks Terence and ZhenYu for everything!

哭笑不得- 柯有伦

电视台裏在点播唱烂的情歌
我一个人开著车经过约会福利社
想起你的轮廓假装你都还在这
路旁一堆垃圾提醒我的爱都已下课
电视台裏在点播唱烂的情歌
我一个人开著车经过约会福利社
想起你的轮廓假装你都还在这
路旁一堆垃圾提醒我的爱都已下课
我对你付出从来不搁浅
以为爱可以收割你却对著我说
Baby no no no no
哭笑不得
我又能如何走的理由竟然先假设
哭笑不得
个性不合你想看我到底有多难过
哭笑不得
非走不可你想感受难分与难舍
哭笑不得
唱起情歌才能深刻感受到我真的拿你没辄

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Seven. @ 9:18 PM

"我已經習慣了忘記他."
-夕瑶

"Emoness".. ==

"The more bitter the experience, the more valid the purified belief."
-Margaret Sanger

Final judgment, 7 days and counting.

Edit@2247

Warriors, Settlers & Nomads.

Interesting book I got at the library just now.

The Settler (That's me.)

Personality Profile

-Sociable: Gets on well with almost anybody.
-Intuitive: A high level of instinct and general awareness.
-Adaptable: Able to make the best of any situation.
-Achilles Heel: The need to be liked.

I shall read on.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Haunting. @ 9:00 PM

It seems that whatever so called good things that happen to me, there's a negative element in disguise.

Take today for example. Bought the correct type of screwdriver (Like finally?), ended up having different sizes.

Pissed.

Idle hands and minds are the devil's workshop.

"There is more to life than my life."
- Jamica Ritcher

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Friday, July 24, 2009

Primal. @ 11:30 PM

What's primal in my life?

"Jagged edges and pain can determine the course and force of one's life."
- Kay Redfield Jamison

Intense emotions and volatile moods.

The Tinkerbell effect: They exist only so long as we believe in them.

"Supposing truth is a woman- what then?"
-Nietzsche

It's up to you to interpret. Up to you to believe, up to your own beliefs.

*Mrs Constance Wong made me fall in love with quotes lol.

Edit @0223

"不敢,是因為心虛. 越是不說,你就越是想. 好好想想吧."
-景天

He said this while he's drunk in the show.

Nonetheless, make sense, isn't it?

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Down. @ 7:09 PM

A vacuum in the soul.

"It's a modern tragedy that despair has so many spokesman, and hope so few."
- Oscar Hammerstein II

*Whoever spreads our class vid has no shame. I'm disgusted, looking at efforts gone down the drain.

Edit@1930

My newest addiction.

Labels: addictions.., lifeeee.., quotes..

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Stupidity. @ 9:02 PM

Edit@2310

Deleted.

I'm seriously stupid.

Labels: lifeeee..

Monday, July 20, 2009

Freedom. @ 6:07 PM

爱错- 王力宏

北風毫不留情　把葉子吹落　坠落的它選擇了逃脫
葉子失去消息　風才感覺寂寞　整個冬天　北風的痛沒人能說

※ 我從來沒想過我會這樣做　從來沒愛過所以愛錯
我從哪裡起飛從哪裡降落　多少不能原諒的錯卻不能重來過 ※

翻開回憶角落　完美的生活　以為幸福都可以掌握
仔細回味當初　那個故事背後　Oh 原來是我　犯下從沒承認的錯
Repeat ※

在這少了妳的世界 Oh~
找不回那些感覺　其實我不想道別　那些過去

我從來沒想過　我會這樣做
從來沒愛過　所以愛錯 (從來沒有愛過那麼認真)
我從哪裡起飛　從哪裡降落
多少不能原諒的錯　卻不能重來過
我從來沒想過　我會這樣做
從來沒愛過　所以愛錯
我從哪裡起飛　從哪裡降落
多少不能原諒的錯　請妳原諒我的愛錯

Somehow i've been associated with this.

Emo? What a joke.

I don't even have the slightest of freedom to feel what I really wanted to feel.

It doesn't pay well to be one sided too.

Edit @2357

胡楊林- 與幸福有關

填词:蔡燕婷
作曲:魏文浩编曲:杨阳

灰色阴天陪伴著想念
轻敲回忆的门要眼泪听见
双手捂住了耳朵我不准记惦
我用力的呼吸却泛红了眼
雨滴下了模糊眼前视线
努力隐藏的痛反而越明显
我们曾扣著指尖承诺彼此的明天
当你放开了手遗忘在昨天
我还记得你温柔的双眼
第一句我爱你多么的甜
幸福的瞬间我们都曾相信会是永远
你决定转身离开的那天
曾属於我们的约定化成了碎片
那幸福的瞬间多么不舍得也要说再见
雨滴下了模糊眼前视线
努力隐藏的痛反而越明显
我们曾扣著指尖承诺彼此的明天
当你放开了手遗忘在昨天
我还记得你温柔的双眼
第一句我爱你多么的甜
幸福的瞬间我们都曾相信会是永远
你决定转身离开的那天
曾属於我们的约定化成了碎片
那幸福的瞬间忽然被划上了句点
相信等待奇迹就会出现
相信不放弃会到终点
可是我们之间已分隔两道爱的平行线
幸福原来也有一个期限
逾期感觉会慢慢沉淀
消失一点一点只剩昨天
我还记得你温柔的双眼
第一句我爱你多么的甜
幸福的瞬间我们都曾相信会是永远
你决定转身离开的那天
曾属於我们的约定化成了碎片
那幸福的瞬间多么不舍得也要说再见
至少拥有过幸福的瞬间

Haven't heard such a nice song for a long long time.. GAWD I'm addicted! :x

Labels: addictions.., lifeeee.., songs..

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Rain. @ 10:14 PM

此生不換(青鳥飛魚)

曲：聞震
詞：楊漩予

時光穿不斷流轉在從前
刻骨的變遷不是遙遠
再有一萬年深情也不變
愛像烈火般蔓延

記憶是條長線盤旋在天邊
沉浮中以為情深緣淺
你再度出現我看見誓言
承諾在水天之間

回頭看不曾走遠依依目光此生不換
要分散不習慣怎麼算都太難
分開之後更勇敢願這愛世代相傳

喝不完忘情水不讓你如煙
前塵再懷戀望劍如面
揮舞的瞬間別再閉上眼
錯過驚世的依戀

回頭看不曾走遠眷戀一人流連忘返
多少汗夠溫暖你哭喊我呼喚
聽清耳邊的呢喃別害怕風輕雲淡

回頭看不曾走遠依然目光此生不換
要分散不習慣怎麼算都太難
分開之後更勇敢願這愛世代相傳

Was discussing with KaiJie about this song earlier this morning. Epic love story. (:

It seems to be raining/drizzling. Exact replica to my mood.

I hate the rain, as usual.

What's with this foreboding?

I can be stupid, but someone else is stupider.

Looking back, moving forward.

How much does memories worth?

I 'datalized' the messages from my old phone. Nice 700kb worth of words.

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Friday, July 17, 2009

Ruminate. @ 11:49 PM

淚光雨- 林依晨

曲:金大洲
詞:徐世珍.司魚

曾經擁有愛短暫的陽光
原來時間多長早就刻在手上
幸福的想哭心跳的很忙
是你給我生命裡第一個夢想

你不在身旁我失去重量
思念就像麥田的波浪
一想起你全世界都在搖晃

曾經擁有夢短暫的亮光
原來白天多長早就刻在心上
寂寞的想逃醒和睡很像
鏡子裡淚水為誰化妝了臉龐

你現在好嗎風繼續吹向
我們沒有到達的地方
吹落一地來不及開的願望

天空飄著淚光雨
悲傷淋濕了翅膀
一個人在眼淚裡一步步長大
走到世界的盡頭
愛會放晴嗎
沒有你的我該為誰飛翔

Oh~
天空飄著淚光雨
悲傷淋濕了翅膀
一個人在眼淚裡一步步長大
走到世界的盡頭
愛會放晴嗎
沒有你的我該為誰飛翔

天空飄著淚光雨
洗去脆弱的堅強
我有那麼那麼多想對你說的話
這個世界的晴朗
從來不夠長
只有淚光雨不停的落下

You are what you think all day long.

The question now is, who do you think you really are?

Or should I say, who do you want to be?

I don't need fantasies.

This may be a paradoxical statement. Let it be.

Well, all I know is,

I don't desire for unnecessary associations. Stop categorizing me.

Neither would I want to be stunned by my situational thoughts as well as uncontrolled actions.

I'm in need of anger management. Probably affected by the lack of sleep.

Drained both physically and mentally.

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Danger. @ 6:50 PM

I'm pissed. My com is 'snailish'. ==

Mental traps chapter 1. Persistence.

A useful distinction may be drawn between persistence and perseverance.

We persevere when we steadfastly pursue our aims despite the obstacles that are encountered along the way.

We persist if we doggedly carry on in directions that are known to lead to a dead end.

I shall continue to persevere and persist.

Labels: lifeeee..

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Perspectives. @ 7:22 PM

Forayed into an unknown vicinity.

Wonder if it's too late.

Well, who wouldn't wish to lead an idyllic life?

Edit@2218

Reflecting on myself, I've been foolishly talking about changes.

People mistake thoughts, wishes and intentions for actual change.

Seriously, we don't really change.

Things like personality, it's in our genotype. No changes can be made.

Superficial changes like actions are modeled, not changed.

We don't have to change ourselves, we just have to change ourselves' outlet.

Same goes for decisions.

"I'll change and I know I will after I made this decision."

Familiar? Stop fooling yourselves.

Think you're a saint?

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Hysteria. @ 4:00 PM

The universal law of actions and reactions.

Tricked into believing, forced into leaving.

Ignorance?

I defended for though I believed I knew, way before the trigger.

Bipolar. I do have my own perspective of things.

Stop shitting me.

I detest people making decisions for me.

I'm disgusted.

Edit @2200hrs

Act as though I am, and I will be.

As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.

Affirm the good and the bad will vanish.

Labels: lifeeee..

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Stymie. @ 7:15 PM

掉了- 張惠妹

作詞/作曲：吳青峰
編曲：Martin Tang
製作：張惠妹/阿弟仔

心疼的玫瑰　半夜還開著　找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到現場卻已來不及　等待任何回音都不可得
微弱的風箏　冬天裡飄著　回不去手中纏線的那個
沒有藍天　又何必去飛　怎麼適合

黑色笑靨掉了　雪白眼淚掉了　該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色　結了冰的長河　回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了　主角對白掉了　該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂　斷了翅的白鴿　不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾經唱過的歌　分享過的笑聲　在心中不斷拉扯
想念不能承認　偷偷擦去淚痕　冬天過了還是會很冷

*Happy birthday to DESMONDLIMJIAHUI and LEWISTANKAIHUI!

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Bipolar. @ 5:53 PM

The tenor of life.

Every thought is a cause, every condition is an effect.

You are what you think. Change your thoughts, change your destiny.

If you think good, good will follow; if you think evil, evil will follow.

Never let heterosuggestions overwhelm you, be dominion of your mind.

Ambivalence.

As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.

Labels: lifeeee..

Monday, July 6, 2009

Emotions. @ 10:08 PM

Dramatic change of emotions today.

Normal, Happy, Satisfied, Empty, Pissed, Anxiety, Hectic

Realized one thing about myself today.

Not really surprised about it though.

I'm still kicking.

Hmm.. Back to reality.

Do I hear homework?

Confronting mortality.

Labels: lifeeee..

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Fortitude. @ 8:16 PM

I strongly believe I'm not living in delusion.

Feelings is dependable on attitude.

It is hard to let go of a comfortable illusion but harder still to construct a happy life out of perceptions and beliefs that do not correspond to the world around us.

Let's hope that If I stay strong in attitude, I can wash the feelings away.

Only by embracing our mortality can we be happy in the time we have.

Labels: lifeeee..

Disorientation. @ 2:16 AM

An inevitable aspect of life.

"We are responsible for most of what happen to us."

Quit whining then.

Define happiness?

"Happiness is not simply the absence of despair. It is an affirmative state in which our lives have both meaning and pleasure."

What makes up happiness then?

"The three components of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to look forward to."

May every single soul around me stay happy.

And I shall not live my life in awry.

To start things going, I'm looking forward in seeing a new story.

The art of Martyrdom is simply an art of stupidity. Never in my life will I practice it.

*Thanks ZhiHui for the song reco! Smilez.

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Miracle. @ 1:21 AM

There's a saying.

In one's entire lifespan, we bound to meet thirty thousand different people.

It was said that we will meet three thousand of them in school/workplace.

Adding on, three hundred of them are considered as acquaintance.

Meeting the special one is considered a miracle. Miracle indeed.

I'm still waiting for my miracle to enter my world.

It doesn't matter who my miracle will be.

However, when you were to arrive, I'll definitely greet you with a smile, and tell you the following words.

"Sorry, but I don't need you at all."

Find yourself a harbor, and I shall continue to drift past time.

选择是我的不是你给的
明天自己负责

ja ne.

Labels: lifeeee..

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Rain. @ 10:40 PM

3 Words to summarize school today.

Fug, fug, fug.

It's just not my day. Started badly, ended badly.

Didn't sleep well yesterday night, payed back in school today.

Rain. Seemed so familiar, yet so different.

If I turn my back I'm defenseless, but to go blindly seems senseless.

The clock ticks life away.

Labels: lifeeee..

Significance. @ 12:22 AM

"Wow it's the second again!" Expecting these?

Sorry but no. I wasn't expecting them either.

All along, I know very well that it's redundant.

Redundant to a point whereby I'm here 'celebrating' when I should be sleeping.

Inconspicuous, insignificance, zero relevance. Describable by the simplest of words.

It's that plain, isn't it?

The meaning of the day.. Nothingness.

Yepp. That should be the case.

A time of nostalgia? Hmm..

I don't need answers.

Labels: lifeeee..

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Volatile. @ 6:58 PM

School was fine, just that things began to get unpleasant after recess.

Big words are not required to deliver one's thoughts.

Somehow, I'm screaming at an inaudible frequency.

Labels: lifeeee..