You're So Last Summer.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Run. @ 11:15 PM

The Earth is large.

Large enough that you think you can hide from anything.

From Fate. From God.

If only you found a place far enough away.

So you run.

To the edge of the Earth. Where all is safe again.

Quiet, and warm. The solace of salt air.

The peace of danger left behind. The luxury of grief.

And maybe, for a moment, you believe you have escaped.

You can run far, you can take your small precautions.

But have you really gotten away? Can you ever escape?

Or is it the truth that you did not have the strength or cunning to hide from destiny?

That the world is not small. you are. And, fate can find you anywhere.

Heroes fever haha.

習慣.

Stinks like a bitch.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Answers. @ 11:14 PM

沒那麼愛他 - 范瑋琪
作詞：徐婕兒　作曲：徐婕兒

你有權利情緒化　你不一定要堅強
但有些事情　不能偽裝　別為自己設了框

我懂失去的悲傷　也懂進退的掙扎
但想起過去　都是失望　又何必要放不下

是習慣　還是愛　不放心　還是不甘心
只有你　自己知道解答

其實你沒有那麼愛他　真的不需要那麼想他
編織過的夢想　自己也可以抵達　誰說一定要有他
其實你沒有那麼愛他　沒有深陷到不可自拔　認清了真心話你就放得下

我懂失去的悲傷　也懂進退的掙扎
但想起過去　都是失望　又何必要放不下

是習慣　還是愛　不放心　還是不甘心
只有你　自己知道解答

其實你沒有那麼愛他　真的不需要那麼想他
編織過的夢想　自己也可以抵達　誰說一定要有他
其實你沒有那麼愛他　沒有深陷到不可自拔　認清了真心話你就放得下

深呼吸　抬頭望　發現天空很寬廣
這世界那麼大　幸福總會在某個地方

其實你沒有那麼愛他　真的不需要那麼想他
擁有過的計劃　留給值得的對象　你知道不會是他
其實你沒有那麼愛他　沒有深陷到不可自拔　認清了真心話你就放得下

Let the lyrics do the talking.

This is soooo about me.

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Perception. @ 12:57 AM

Rest In Pieces - Saliva

Look at me
My depth perception
Must be off again

Cause this hurts deeper
Than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine

You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled
Before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Pieces

Look at me
My depth perception
Must be off again

You got much closer
Than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hand

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Would you find it in your heart?
(Would you find it in your heart?)
(Would you let me rest in pieces?)
(Would you find it in your heart?)
(Would you let me rest in pieces?)

Would you find it in your heart?
(Would you find it in your heart?)
(Would you let me rest in pieces?)
(Would you find it in your heart?)
(Would you let me rest in pieces?)

Beautiful lyrics isn't it.

I like this, "Gently smiled before you destroyed my life."

Chemistry revision has come to a halt.

Too tired to continue anymore.

Haunted by sore throats and running nose.

Just hope tomorrow I can slide through the ring of fire.

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Invisible. @ 12:30 AM

白白的 - 张韶涵

空白白的白得天又混濁變黑
我算是誰醒了還在原地
白白的靈魂的是會很容易碎
落入眼裡想哭卻沒有眼淚

好想把一切都砸個粉碎
只有你才能給我一次欣慰
你是無形的傷口
你平白的咬一口
再多的愛也不夠
都不夠不夠超完美傷口

空白白的白天又混濁變黑
怕遇到誰那無用的安慰
喔白白的赤裸的心會很容易碎
落入眼裡想哭卻沒有眼淚

好想把自己也砸個粉碎
都摧毀才能給我一次欣慰
你是無形的傷口
你平白的咬一口
再多的愛也不夠
都不夠不夠超完美傷口
都不夠卻還有
都不夠卻還有

空白白的我的心會一碰就碎
只有你才能給我一次欣慰
你是無形的傷口
你平白的咬一口
再多的愛也不夠
都不夠不夠超完美傷口

你是無形的傷口
你平白的咬一口
再多的愛也不夠
都不夠不夠超完美傷口

是我勇敢太久?

This week is a nightmare. Starting from tomorrow, It gonna be a hell of a dogfight.

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Blind. @ 11:46 PM

Interesting day?

My desktop died.

And right now, I feel like a loser, suffering from sore throats and mouth ulcers.

Been turning blind to some stuffs for quite some time now.

Part of the 'Operation Hide Behind The MASK!' I presume.

Labels: lifeeee..

Friday, September 11, 2009

Mask. @ 11:11 PM

那個那個 - 戴佩妮

作詞：戴佩妮
作曲：戴佩妮

怎會被一杯咖啡
打翻了整個深夜都不能入睡
怎麼會哼起了某一首歌
就以為那是對的安慰
我很想只蓋著我的棉被
假裝我不怕黑
卸下我的防備
變成了灰
我還要謝謝你
分享了狼狽

怎麼會是一種罪
徹底將回憶灌醉瀟灑的乾杯
我怎麼會想忘記某一個人
到頭來時間都被浪費
我很想只背著我的guitar
剪掉長的頭髮
放棄我的掙扎
你討厭我吧
我還要謝謝你
成全了眼淚

曾經我是你的那個
最摯愛的那個
嘴邊經常掛著你想念的我
如今誰是你的那個
你轉身以後我就沒打聽過
原來我也是你那個
傷了心的那個
被你忽略的事我不想再說
我不是那個那個
那不是我

怎麼會是一種罪
徹底將回憶灌醉瀟灑的乾杯
我怎麼會想忘記某一個人
到頭來時間都被浪費
我很想只背著我的guitar
剪掉長的頭髮
放棄我的掙扎
你討厭我吧
我還要謝謝你
成全了眼淚

曾經我是你的那個
最摯愛的那個
嘴邊經常掛著你想念的我
如今誰是你的那個
你轉身以後我就沒打聽過
原來我也是你那個
傷了心的那個
被你忽略的事我不想再說
我不是那個那個
那不是我

我不是你曾經的那個
最摯愛的那個
嘴邊經常掛著你想念的我如今誰是你的那個
你轉身以後我就沒打聽過
原來我也是你那個
傷了心的那個
被你忽略的事我不想再說
我不是那個那個
那不是我
那個的那個不是我我不是你的了
我屬於我

All of us wear masks.

They can be worn out of love and the desire to remain close to those around us, to spare them from the complicated reality of our frayed psyches.

We trade honesty for companionship, and in the process never truly know the hearts closest to us.

I'm sick and tired of protecting myself behind this piece of metal.

/Edit@0150

Deep down, I'm still that immature kid, aren't I?

Perhaps, just like somethings are not meant to be, some changes need not be forced.

When will a day come when I can be more mature and take flight?

Anyone?

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes.., songs..

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Five. @ 11:35 PM

Something out of the world happened to me today.

Was flipping through my cupboard when I saw this purple shirt.

Realised that I haven't touch that shirt for exactly 5months.

The weird part comes in.

"For fcuk sake, just BURN me, CUT me, TEAR me, THROW me away! I SWEAR in the name of (fill in your own blank if you like) that I WILL come back and HAUNT you! So, PLEASE!"

That's what the shirt told me.

Still deciding on what to do with it though.

Realised something today.

Every thing depreciates?

Life, emotions, assets, whatever.

Even when I'm crapping here, I'm a few minutes closer to my coffin.

Don't want your assets to depreciate? SURE!

Just drop it into the disposal account.

You may even get back something in return.

P.S, I'm not sane when I typed this.

/Edit@0118

I'm depreciating at an intense rate.

Life, emotions, goals.

They just started losing value.

1 thing remains constant though.

我不是你想像的那麼勇敢.

Labels: lifeeee..

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Intensity. @ 11:36 PM

On July 16, 1945, in the mountains outside of Los Alamos, New Mexico, the world's first atomic bomb exploded.

The white light pierced the sky with such intensity that a blind girl claimed to see the flash from a hundred miles away.

After witnessing the explosion, J. Robert Oppenheimer quoted a fragment of the Bhagavad Gita, declaring, "Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds."

His colleague, Ken Bainbridge, put it another way when he leaned close to Oppenheimer and whispered, "Now we're all sons of bitches."...

Sons and bitches indeed.

Some things are just inreversible.

Face it.

There is no fate but what we make.

Are you trying to tell me that it's due to fate that I'm crapping my ass off here?

P.S, I feel emotionless, and I don't like the intensity I see in my eyes.

/Edit@0203

What's happening to me? I don't know.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Wounds. @ 1:37 AM

In 1678 doctors diagnosed a mental affliction soldiers suffered from as 'nostalgia' - homesickness, a longing to return to the past.

The cruel reality of war is that there is no return home.

No return to innocence.

What is lost, is lost forever.

Life itself is a war, simultaneously running in all instances.

War's wounds have bled me dry.

No words of comfort; no words of forgiveness.

No words at all.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Monday, September 7, 2009

Man. @ 1:55 AM

People hide secrets, time is a lie, the material world can disappear in an instant.

It has and it will again.

Our identities change.

Our names, the way we look, how we act and speak.

We’re shape-shifters.

There is no control, no constant, no shelter but the love of family and the body God gave us.

And we can only hope that will always be enough.

Labels: lifeeee.., quotes..

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Fatigue. @ 12:12 AM

This sense of fatigue, suffocating.

It feels like I can't hear myself anymore.

Packing your bag in a hurry, change of clothes, make-up, book, then a 'story' that you can't tell anyone.

Tell me that I'm not consciously searching for an audience.

Labels: lifeeee..

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Half. @ 11:42 AM

Amath paper.

Disappointment.

No regrets though, since I've tried my best.

I'm just not there yet.

The life I'm leading now is like screaming into a bottomless pit.

I hear replies, hell yea.

It's just the echo of my own consciousness.

Half. Sing into a microphone with faulty speakers.

Labels: lifeeee..

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Gunned. @ 2:55 AM

Ok new skin. What's with the time now sia ==

Busy day today.

Mini gathering @HongKahPri.

First Ever BBQ Gathering for 4E2'09 @Desmond + Ms Yeo's place.

Tons of pictures, shall upload them ltr in the day.

Memories to be kept forever (:

TAKING BACK SUNDAY FTW LA!

You're so last summer.

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Renaissance. @ 10:20 PM

The passage of time, devoured me mercilessly.

I've regained consciousness.

Somehow, my desperate reach to improve myself made me lost myself.

I've lost my faith, lost my values, lost my principle in life.

I've forgotten about the gain and loss theorem, forgotten about the cause and effect theorem.

I've forgotten about the fallibility of humans is what that made us humans.

I've turned into a selfish being, seeing only one side of things.

Seems that I still have a long way to go to improve myself.

Growing up is a never ending journey of acquiring experience and wisdom.

I will take sometime for me to deserve others' love, and to love others.

Labels: lifeeee..

Monday, August 24, 2009

Acoustic. @ 10:20 PM

Slow down the phase of life.

Let music fill my life with contentment.

I'm in love with the art of acoustic music.

Terrible headache. :x

Time out, time for music.

Labels: lifeeee..

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Belong. @ 9:42 PM

I had a home, a home where I was seen for who I am.

Wicked twisted lies.

Now, where I belong?

I closed my eyes and beg for peace.

Labels: lifeeee..

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Path. @ 10:05 PM

How does it feel when your own mother is planning for you to retain?

Acknowledgment, encouragement, WHATEVER, they were never present.

So be it. I've gotten use to that.

This time, it's different.

For one who is driven by acknowledgments, it's a catastrophe.

What's more? The main character just thought you were angry.

This degree of insensitivity is suffocating.

PICTURE

Three Of Swords from Rider-Waite deck.

若你碰到他 - 蔡健雅

作詞/作曲：蔡健雅
編曲：蔡健雅/Doug Petty
製作：蔡健雅

我的脆弱堅強　互相作戰
理性與感性　失去平衡感
不想讓自己　活在過去的遺憾
問宇宙　他是否還愛我嗎
這問題　早就有答案

＊若你碰到了　替我問候他
　告訴他　我過得很美滿
　已忘記他　已把淚水全部擦乾
　若你碰到了　替我問候他
　祝福他和他的另一半
　不在乎他　不再愛也不再等待
　就這樣吧　若你碰到他＊

我的自私慷慨　互相挑戰
黑夜白天顛倒　造成困擾
常在最樂觀時　突然跌進沮喪
為何失戀後想恢復　那麼困難
只好找些催眠的話

REPEAT＊

愛　沒有絕對　雖曾經以為
我終於體會　愛不能倒退
該讓它頹廢　收起心碎

REPEAT＊

就這樣吧　若你碰到他

Labels: lifeeee.., songs..

Silence. @ 2:20 AM

Why would there be noises at 2.24a.m.? D:

Time for some snacks for our soul.

Take a look at this, BE IMPACTED.

PICTURE

Utterly speechless. These are the fruits we reap from 3+ years of involvement?

Labels: lifeeee..

Friday, August 21, 2009

Purpose. @ 12:26 AM

I don't really get what i'm blogging for.

Broken heart like a wind, shaken heart like a wave.

My heart vanished like smoke.

Labels: lifeeee..

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Surprise. @ 10:04 PM

Was rather surprised today.

Today was a rather fruitless day, I supposed.

人的心彷彿一枚燈泡. 燈絲若有絲毫的裂痕, 就不能有如往常一樣, 發光發熱. 它可能會亮, 可能不會亮. 沒人會知道何時會亮. 何時不會亮.

當然, 人類的心更難判斷, 更難理解.

Somehow, somethings aren't behaving like they should.

Labels: lifeeee..